The last thing you want comes in first.

what I wouldn't give, to find a soulmate, someone else to catch this drift.

I remember all the time why I love you. It hits me in the shower, the water like nails piercing through my skin, getting cold on my feet. I taste it in the coffee at 45th and 6th, strong black with no added preservatives. I feel it in the fillings I give to my patients, squirming under the pallid light. Your love envelopes me like the warmth of the midday heat stepping out from the air-conditioned shop. It hugs me like a pair of my favorite jeans. I miss it the moment I feel it.

These things, are worth all the bad days together. All those times we fought and hate, the bitterness inside like pieces of shrapnel. How our tears collide like dams bursting.